I was the girl who always told people to stop complaining about what they looked like while being pregnant. When I would hear girls talk about how much weight they had gained while being pregnant I would get upset, and I would promptly tell them to "stop it",
they where "making a baby for crying out loud"!!
they were not just getting fat for no reason, they had a very good reason.
I have since eatin' my words.
I have become that girl. I have become the self conscious type. I have cried, made fun of, hated, and laughed at my continually growing body. and I hate that.
but as much as I hate that about myself, I now have an understanding about what those girls where talking about. I now know why they felt the way they did, and said the things they said.
I have never loved my body, but I've never hated it either. I've been content, even when I should have kicked myself in the butt and got to working out and eating less. I didn't think this step would come when I got pregnant, because after all-in my own eatin' words, "I'm growing a baby! not just getting fat for no reason". I apologize to those people I once told to "stop it".
Life can sometimes get rough, and sometimes get you down. and being pregnant is no exception. I have come to realize out of these thoughts that even though I have fat, believe you me the scale is getting closer and closer to the husband's scale number!
which makes me crazy, but also makes me laugh.
I am dealing with sever pregnancy acne, all over my body. I am dealing with out of control hormones, etc. etc. etc. but you know what; who cares??? I have come to realize that I shouldn't care, this is what I was dealt and I just have to find my way through it. If I don't care, then why should others? they can't. I'm having a baby, and I can't wait for what is a head in our life, bring it on. I'm confident that I can make it through, I honestly can't fail.
I have a great support system, a loving husband,
and a Heavenly Father who's truly won't give me anything I can't handle!!!!
this isn't a self pity moment, believe me!
I'm great. Life is good. I'm healthy, happy and so is my husband and child.
I just wanted these thoughts on here, for my journal...for later on and during other pregnancy's.