dear baby c,
it's amazing to think that next week will be 6 months since you flew away to our Father in Heaven. life has been drastically different since you entered into your daddy's and my life.
a good different, a needed different.
but we miss you.
that is always going to be the case, but sometimes the pain is so real and then others it's not.
i hate feeling this way. i hate it when the pain is strong, and i hate it when i don't feel the awful heart wrenching pain. will that ever go away?
i think about what 'would have been' if life would have gone as 'planed'. you would be almost 4 months old. that's amazing to think about,
and sad because your not.
it's weird to think how different our lives would have been if life would have gone as we thought it should have....to be parents, would we have been good ones?
i know our Father in Heaven had great plans for you, and that you had a bigger mission then this earth, i do believe that with all my heart. i just wish i could hold you, rock you, love you.
i hope your happy. i love you. always remember that.